I'm such a DORK

I feel like such a scardy cat. Tonight Hudson and I went to dinner with my mom, and did not get home until after 8 PM. Josh is working at the fire department tonight. So, after we got home, we spent some time outside watering our flowers (not sure if we're allowed but we do). So it was getting dark when we came inside. I then got Hudson some juice and did a few things around the house. I let Zoe outside to go potty before coming upstairs to give Hudson a bath and get him ready for bed. I finished all that, got Hudson asleep, and I read in bed for a LONG time. Zoe began whining, and I figured I'd let her out one more time before going to bed myself. Only, when I turned the porch light on I saw a bag with something in it (though I couldn't tell what) on my porch! This was not there earlier or I would have seen it. It was right in front of the door. This terrifies me because the person that put it there came after dark and came all the way up my stairs and onto my porch!!! So, I call Josh (and wake him up) and ask him where the gun is. We are very careful with the gun as Hudson is so small, but I knew we'd just gotten back from vacation and didn't know if he'd put it back in its spot yet. He told me he had it with him in his truck. UGH! You see, when you open my front door you cannot see the entire porch because it runs the whole length of my house. So you have to actually go outside to see the whole thing. Well, without the gun I was NOT checking out the contents of this bag as I knew the boogy man was waiting for me on one side or the other. So, Josh tells me to call the police and ask them to send an officer. Luckily, the only one that came happened to be Josh's fire leiutenant because it turned out that all the bag had in it was my PHONE BOOKS! Do not worry though...I have already gotten the number to find out WHO delivers to my house, and come Monday morning they are going to get an earful about delivering something onto my porch after dark!

As a side note, when I dialed 911 on my cell phone it made a loud ring, but my phone was on silent. Then after I hung up, I opened my contacts page and it made the same ring like it was leaving the emergency setting. All I could think about was that it was a good thing I was not trying to dial this without some kidnapper hearing me! Anyone know how to turn that ring off? That's a strange setting to me.

I know...I know...I have an overactive imagination. I'm not sure how to help it though. I do try to really trust that God is in control of every situation. I know that there is nothing that will ever separate me from His love. I know that His word says not to be anxious about anything. I know that He has a plan for me. I know all of these truths...but I still feel the fear when something like tonight happens. And now, I'm left feeling kinda silly. And the 911 dispatcher asked me if I saw any white powder around the bag. "No Ma'am, turns out it's just my new phone books."